“It’s about moments in life that are great but don’t last. They don’t go on, but you always have the memory and they have an effect on you. That’s what I was thinking about.”—Sofia Coppola on Lost In Translation (via funeral)
“A good relationship is when two people accept each other’s past, support each other’s present, and love each other enough to encourage each other’s future. So don’t rush love. Find a partner who encourages you to grow, who won’t cling to you, who will let you go out into the world, and trust that you will come back. This is what true love is all about.”—
That I’m a selfish brat towards Jordan. Whenever I feel like I’m not getting what I want from him or if things aren’t going my way I turn into a bitch and act upset with him. When really, reflecting on all the things he’s done for me, he has done a lot. I have been unappreciative towards him and I feel awful. I see now just how much he does care for me and how he is trying his best to balance his life and our relationship.
Like who would put up with me for this long if they didn’t care?? I’ve had an attitude and have complained about some really irrelevant stuff, and have blew things out of proportion and have made big deals out of small situations, and yet he has managed to stick around.
Bless his soul cause Lord knows I haven’t made it easy lol I am very thankful that he hasn’t given up on us even though there have been countless times where he easily could’ve.
It reassures me that he does care a lot for me, and that I am one of his priorities and that he respects and cherishes our relationship.
I'm torn between whether if I should stay or leave
On one hand, if I continue to stay, I can make the most of my time spent with you and enjoy your company. See where this relationship will take us, I may not be the one but I can be a potential good friend. I can continue to have my fun with you, enjoy doing the things we do together. But I have to realize that I will never change your mind, we will never go further than this. That being said I must also not feel any deeper for you than I already do. You’re young you can use the experience.
On the other hand, I can leave and get out now. You already know that this relationship has already gone full circle—there is no more progress to make. So why stay and keep going down a dead end? What more is there for you to do other than waste your time? You could be out, meeting new people, meeting someone who wants something more with you; someone who likes you without the “but..”.
No one cares which road you take. You pick a path, go down it, and live with the outcome. If it is positive, good for you, if it is negative oh well; you learn from it, cry a little, and move on. There are bigger problems in the world. And you know you’ll get over it you’ve done it before.
*Edit: The longer I stay here, the harder it is for me to leave. There are a lot of things he’s done wrong, and a lot of things he’s done right—and they’ve balanced each other out.
It seems to me at this point I am staying, and am in it for the long run.
(part of me feels like I’m staying to prove a point to myself)